At the beginning of every year, As a family, it is a bit of a tradition, to give some thought and prayer as to what our “word” for the year would be. Something that describes what we plan/dream/hope will happen in that year. In January 2015, I felt like the Lord impressed on my mind the word “Wait”. I was not that happy with this word. I had so many ideas rattling around in my brain. Trying to configure ways to get a job, what I could do for one. “I could do this, this way, or this, or this!” Planning ways to increase my business, ways to do more, be more, fit more into my life. I came to the realization that I was causing my mind a great deal of stress and unrest by filling my brain with things and trying to make them happen apart from God. Because ultimately, God is the only one who can make any of my dreams and desires come true. And not every random thing that pops into my head that sounds “fun” is what He has for me. So the word I felt like God gave me was “Wait”. It was hard.
Learning to do things in His power and with His guiding, and not of my own power was hard. After all, I had graduated and I needed to be doing something else right? Wrong!
I was also realizing that I was falling into the trap of discontentment. Not taking time to see what God had for me this day, this moment, this second. . . but instead future tripping, always looking ahead. Missing things He had for me right NOW. Not being willing to spend my time in the right here and right now. Wondering what my life would be like “later” and what I could do “when this happens”.
“Guide me in your truth and faithfulness and teach me for you are the God of my salvation for you do I wait all the day long.”
“My soul wait only upon God and silently submit to him; for my hope and expectations are from him.”
“For from of old no one has heard nor perceived by the ear, nor has the eye seen a God besides you, who works and shows Himself active on behalf of him who Waits for Him.”
These were some of the scripture God gave me at that time. Waiting on Him was hard. There were so many things I wanted to do, and no real way to do them, so God’s solution? Wait and Trust in Him. I didn’t do it perfectly, but as the months have gone by, He has blessed me more than I could ever imagine.
~ He blessed me with the most amazing trip to Georgia to visit a dear friend for her Birthday. Around every turn there was a blessing from Him. Easy Air Travel, Good health, An unbelievably good time, and safe travel home. I would have never thought I would have been able to fly somewhere and God just had everything fall perfectly into place. To the very date of me being there for her Birthday.
~ A job opportunity that is so much better than working some minimum wage random job. And it also pays me to do something that I enjoy. . . Sewing! And the best part is I can do it at home, still filling my role as homemaker and daughter. And I can go barefoot if I want while on the job!
~ And so many other countless little things that has shown me that God truly has my best interests at heart and I need only Wait for Him to bring it to pass.
What about you? Do you find it hard to Wait? Has God ever given you something so amazing that it made you feel special?
By His Grace