Hello all! I have been waiting what feels like a long time (3 months) to share this news! My big bro is getting married. He is the second one of us to get married, BUT it feels like the first for me in a lot of ways because my oldest brother got married when I was pretty young (think13ish) so I don’t really remember the process. He has just been married and they have 3 munchkins with one more on the way, so yeah. It has been a while.
We got to have Luke and Joshua live at home for a LONG time by the worlds standards. (which, who cares about those anyway) I felt so blessed, and I did a post very early this year about them moving out and how that was somewhat bittersweet for me.
Fast-forward a few weeks. . . still getting used to them moving out and being the oldest most responsible child at home etc. when WHHAM! Luke announced that he was in a relationship and it quickly became obvious that she was “the one”. Several month later they were engaged and they will be married early fall.
Talk about a whirlwind.
This blog is all about sharing my heart, and I am going to do my best to explain how amazing/sad this is.
We often talk about the excitement and joy of such an occasion. Those are so obvious and the things we talk about most. But there is a reverse to that pendulum swing, and that is the sadness.
There is bitter, and sweet. Sadness and joy. And I think that is normal. So, while I am SUPER EXCITED for my brother and new sister, and I am so stoked and blessed by God’s answer to prayer, (Rebecca is amazing you all!) I am still somewhat sad.
Things keep changing. And I feel much like a little kid who wants to dig in their heels. But through this season, I am learning to keep surrendering that to the Lord. He knows our steps and our paths and has them all planned out for us. I have equal moments of dancing with joy and bursting with tears because my heart hurts a tiny bit. This season of us all “one big happy family” is changing and it is growing and becoming a bigger family. I am learning that it is okay to be tearful and joyful at the same time. I am learning to lean into Jesus and let Him fill me up instead of relying on my comfort zone. It is a journey, and I still fail miserably at it, but that is what a journey is, isn’t it? Constantly growing, maturing and changing.
We are loving the moments of seeing Luke and Rebecca and it is fun as Rebecca starts to grow into our family, putting down roots and getting to know everyone.
We have taken to calling the happy couple Captain Adorable and his lovely fiancé. All too soon it will be Mr. and Mrs. Captain adorable. Watching them and seeing how incredibly happy they are with each other makes my heart sing. I am so incredibly happy for them, you can’t even imagine. You pray for years that God would bring the perfect spouse for your sibling and when God does, you are just blown away. It feels so surreal. Almost like it isn’t happening. It is happening so fast, I feel like I am frantically grasping at ribbons that are blowing away in the wind, trying to hang onto these precious moments that will all too soon be forgotten.
Probably one of the biggest things that goes along with the bride and groom. . .I am making the wedding dress! *runs around in a crazy circle* *screams* *Faints*
There will definitely be some posts on the makings of that. I am going to cut into fabric Lord willing this week! I will let you know if I survive!
Here is a lovely picture of the happy couple!
Do you ever have that bittersweet feeling?
By God’s Grace,